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Sunday, March 1st, 2009
2:40 am
 well, this looks really inactive but i am desperate at this point. i just recently got a live journal account for the purpose of a journal and hopefully looking for support. i used to just use facebook because i had nothing else but i want to be able to post some of my more depressing thoughts without my friends knowing. i just recently admitted to myself that i am depressed because i simply couldnt function anymore. im interested in buddha cause my philosophy teacher says most of my ideas are very buddhist. i dont know anything about it though. i saw the words buddha and depression and decided to start my search for help their. i was wondering if im in a good place or if someone could refer me to a group or person or anything. 
Thursday, July 17th, 2008
2:03 pm
Faith and equanimity
I just watched Mock the Week. Funny, but also so depressing. I think I need to pretend Zimbabwe doesn't exist until I'm in a place where I can assimilate it without applying the despair it inspires to everything else.

Equanimity. That's what I need. I get much worse at it when I'm depressed. In my head I just made the link with it and faith - you know how sometimes things you know theoretically just fall into place and you can see them. Read more...Collapse )
Monday, November 12th, 2007
2:43 pm
Eight Verses for Training the Mind

by Langri Thangpa

With a determination to accomplish
The highest welfare for all sentient beings
Who surpass even a wish-granting jewel
I will learn to hold them supremely dear.

Whenever I associate with others I will learn
To think of myself as the lowest among all
And respectfully hold others to be supreme
From the very depths of my heart.

In all actions I will learn to search into my mind
And as soon as an afflictive emotion arises
Endangering myself and others
Will firmly face and avert it.

I will learn to cherish beings of bad nature
And those oppressed by strong sins and suffering
As if I had found a precious
Treasure very difficult to find.

When others out of jealousy treat me badly
With abuse, slander, and so on,
I will learn to take on all loss,
And offer victory to them.

When one whom I have benefited with great hope
Unreasonably hurts me very badly,
I will learn to view that person
As an excellent spiritual guide.

In short, I will learn to offer to everyone without exception
All help and happiness directly and indirectly
And respectfully take upon myself
All harm and suffering of my mothers.

I will learn to keep all these practices
Undefiled by the stains of the eight worldly conceptions
And by understanding all phenomena as like illusions
Be released from the bondage of attachment.
Thursday, September 27th, 2007
10:26 am
Tricycle's Daily Dharma: September 27, 2007

Who is the other?

We are not innocent children victimized by a big, bad world; if our world is big and bad we made it that way. This is what the Buddha taught. The "other" is a child's boogeyman, the projection of our own fears onto a terrifying object of our imagination, which in turn terrorizes us. Our ignorance is not seeing that we are the other. We cannot afford to confuse innocence with this ignorance. Violence is not a permanent, immutable, fixed object. It is a state of mind, an expression of ignorance, with no more solid substance than a cloud. We cannot make a frontal attack on violence. Even protecting ourselves from it fuels its boogeyman existence. But the Buddha taught that w can change. This was his good news: that there is a way to alleviate suffering by freeing our minds from geed, anger, and ignorance. Yet until we apprehend the ways in which we are Oklahoma City, the bombs and the baby bears, he victims and the violators, we will continue to blame "the," all the while proclaiming our innocence and evading our responsibilities.

- Helen Tworkov, Tricycle: The Buddhist Review, Vol. V, #1 from Everyday Mind, a Tricycle book edited by Jean Smith
Thursday, January 4th, 2007
8:47 pm
These various quotes are from my favorite poetess, Merrit Malloy. I selected quotes that remind me of Buddhism:

"What loves does not wear out."

"If you want to be happy, nobody can stop you."

"Nothing outside of you has to happen for us to be happy. If we can get this we can have everything else."

"If we can see ourselves in one other person, eventually we will come to see everybody."

"Don't look for love as though it isn't there."

"Love is not something you can fall into."

"Love is a verb."

"Love isn't just doing good things... Love is the spirit with which we do good things."

"Peace is what happens when we let things be PERFECT exactly the way they are."
Wednesday, December 20th, 2006
2:49 pm
We are all well aware of the Five Precepts and the Fifth Precept makes me wonder quite a bit. The Buddha wants us to abstain from drugs and/or drinking. Can you still be remain Buddhist if you drink alcohol? Is it just not okay to drink to "drown our sorrows"? What about getting drunk for fun? What are your thoughts on this?

Also, what are your thoughts on the Third Precept: abstaining from sexual misconduct? What your interpretation of sexual misconduct?

x-posted to buddhists
1:45 am
only kindness matters
I was thinking that this song might inspire some us. ;)

If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear

My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken

Poverty stole your golden shoes
But it didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after

We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing

My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken

In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters

I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray

My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken

My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken

We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's mind
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's heart
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's eyes
We are God's hands
We are God's hands

"Hands" by Jewel
Sunday, November 12th, 2006
12:09 am
Buddhism and BiPolar
Anyone here with BiPolar?
I'm having worries about things that I thought were just Religion, faith... and now I'm worrying might just be my BiPolar having a joke at my expense.

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Current Mood: depressed
Saturday, September 30th, 2006
3:33 am
I guess that most of you could say that I am new to Buddhism. My name is Jessica and I've been intrigued by Buddhism ever since I saw the film Seven Years In Tibet. I've researched a little bit on Buddhism and have discovered that it is the lifestyle/religion that makes the most sense to me. I believe that if one must focus on themself, then they must find that source of compassion for all beings. I've suffered from depression since I was fourteen, but nothing has given me more warmth, more personal wealth than practicing my compassion for others in little ways. The Lord Buddha is so correct when he states that, "Desire causes suffering." I crave so much in this life and yet I've realized that when I receive the things that I covet, I only lust for more. Nothing has given me more personal satisfaction than being a good friend and loving my family and friends more than myself. But, I understand that a lot of the love that I have for them is selfish. As a person who suffers mentally (now heavily medicated) there are moments when I revert back to my selfishness. I feel deep in my heart that Buddhism is the path for me, but how can I go about it in daily intervals? How can I overcome my selfishness, my desires so I don't fall into bad karma or remain in the state of samsara? I guess you could say I'm still searching for something. What does the Lord Buddha state about mental/emotional suffering (i.e. depression)? Can anyone direct me to good literature about this? How do I become a better full-fledged Buddhist practitioner? Thank you all.

X-posted to buddhists.
Monday, July 24th, 2006
1:01 pm
Yesterday and aeons away
There's a point between the first and third, and the second and third noble truths where I get stuck.
See the dukkha. Feel the dukkha. See the dukkha bound up with life as we live it.
But then part of me just doesn't believe that dukkha will end.
Sometimes I make it on to the second - the dukkha comes from grasping and clinging, from greed, hate and delusion. Other times I don't. Or if I do, I might just brush with the third logically: to stop the dukkha, stop the grasping. But that just seems so far away, so it doesn't make that much of an impact.
Yesterday I had one of those days where you can see dukkha everywhere, and I could see the greed, the hate, the delusion that caused it. People being horrible, or more often thoughtless, blinded by their greed, their fear, their unwillingness to confront reality and themselves. Did I say they? More accurately, we. Causing pain to others, and suffering to ourselves.

I have often heard it said in theological/buddhological circles that the thing that's really lacking in Buddhism for the West is the prospect of hope. You can escape suffering, but it will most likely be aeons and aeons away. The suffering of others you can only hope to relieve, not cure. More aeons for them, then. You don't just wait till you die and then go to heaven. Heaven is a temporary state like any other rebirth in Buddhism.

Aeons away is a long time. I'm a perfectionist. It sometimes suprises people when I say that, as I'm a scruffy laidback kind of girl. I'm a lazy perfectionist: if something's not worth doing properly, it's not worth doing. This works well with cleaning - I clean properly, and only when I need to. Applied to life it is more problematic. Grey: if it's not white, it may as well be black.
But grey isn't black. A little bit may be enough. If I can do something to make life even a little bit better for myself or others, then I should do it. It's not perfection, but it's enough. It's better. It's getting there. There's something relevant before the aeons away.

Current Mood: contemplative
Tuesday, June 27th, 2006
6:27 pm
I never got around to posting my 'life story' as I guess it is.
This is because the thought of actually setting it all down and relating to it ALL in a Buddhist way just put me off.

But I'm going to try.
It's behind a cut for length and so people don't have to bother reading it if they don't want to.
Format... well I'll put it in (mostly) chronological order, then put some of my reactions, deductions, etc later on as this post is way too long!

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Current Mood: blah
Saturday, May 27th, 2006
11:39 am
I found a link to this community on another community.

I should introduce myself, but I'm not entirely sure how much to say.
My normal depression has been made a lot worse by external things.
I do post for help with reactions to those things in Buddhist communities, but I've never said what those things were.

I think it's probably time to work out how to help myself with those things in a Buddhist way.

So... I guess I'm asking if it's ok to post a lot about myself to explain where I'm coming from?

Current Mood: nervous
Thursday, May 11th, 2006
4:53 pm

This is to anyone who might wonder what happened to me. I've decided to leave this community due to the lack of input from others plus I'd like to concentrate on other communities.


T from Canada
Wednesday, April 19th, 2006
8:41 pm
New Med and Question
I just got a new med - lithium. Anyone have any experience with this med? Tell me your experiences please. How do most Buddhists feel about psychiatric meds? Should one not really need them if they just practice intensely and follow the precepts or do they allow that some people have a chemical imbalance? Haven't talked to many other Buddhists about this subject, though I do know of several therapists who do have a grounding in it (unfortunately none of them are in my state or I'd see them!).
Sunday, April 9th, 2006
1:17 pm
To Herringprincess

It would be nice to see more activity in this community so I thought of 2 things I could do.

1. Here is a list of more interests you could maybe add to the community.

Buddha, Buddhists, anxiety, anxiety disorders, panic disorders, panic
attacks, anxiety attacks, phobias, fear, hope, acceptance, spirit,
spirituality, spirituality, China, India, meditation, Dala Lama, Tibet,
mood disorders, support, support group, self help, motivation, harmony,
peace of mind, relaxation, truth, philosophy, and encouragement.

2. I could do some promoting of this community.

Is it ok with you if I -posted in community_promo or is it community

-posted in other relevant lj communities?

I'm not experienced with doing community promoting so any advice would be appreciated. Is there something specific I could post for promoting (ie: part of the community info)? Could I promote on other websites (yahoo groups?) I'd check a community's rule about community promos or ask for permission from the maintainers.

Would any of the members like to add to the interest list or partner with me for doing the promoting?

I am interested in doing the above but please keep in mind that I am facing difficult challenges in my life (ie: health/disability challenges, relationship has broken up, etc) so it might take me awhile to do all the above or I might later decide I can't do all I listed here.

Tuesday, March 21st, 2006
11:27 pm
seeking new mindfulness
Haven't been successful in meditation in a few months now. By successful I don't mean some glorious golden experience or anything. I mean sitting for more than two minutes without getting frustrated and walking away. It's getting harder and harder to meditate anymore. I think the depression is telling me that I am fooling myself and thus I am self-sabotaging. My monkey mind keeps telling myself that there is no point and that it won't help, since my depression has been present on and off for 9 years. Which is utter nonsense because it has always helped; I just cannot get myself to believe it anymore.

So I am thinking maybe I need to approach meditation in a new way. Anyone feel like sharing their own meditation techniques with me? Even if it is similar, I may glean something new from your description of it. Please, anyone who has the time and feels disposed to, describe your meditation techniques, whatever they are.


Current Mood: curious
Sunday, March 19th, 2006
1:10 am
I am new to this community. It seems pretty inactive but I hope that changes.
I really like the idea of this place, and am actually surprised that it is inactive at all. I know one of the reasons I was drawn to Buddhism was because of my own suffering with depression and mental illness. It guides me and helps me find peace within my existence.

I am curious if anyone else here has worked with Bhaisajyaguru, or Medicine Buddha.

"If one meditates on the Medicine Buddha, one will eventually attain enlightenment, but in the meantime one will experience an increase in healing powers both for oneself and others and a decrease in physical and mental illness and suffering." —Lama Tashi Namgyal

I have been interested in the powers of the Medicine Buddha for a long time, and just ordered a book called Medicine Buddha Teachings. I am eager for it to arrive. I think a lot can be learned from this figure, especially by members of this community.

Blessings to you all. Namaste.

in is said that merely looking upon his image can heal...Collapse )

Current Mood: curious
Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
6:24 pm
the meditation of tears
Good Earthturning;

I've been watching this community since it started but haven't really felt I have much to contribute. Lately I've been away from the net and intermittently turning a thought over in my head which I had earlier this year, and wonder whether it may be of interest: Weeping and meditation may have something in common...

I found myself at the beginning of this year moved to tears by something; I forget what. In the course of which I wondered whether this was not rather self-indulgent of me. Perhaps I was somehow acting the tears out in a narcissistic manner. This is not a new thought; in fact it is one which I have had increasingly at such moments for over a decade. I have slowly come to suspect my tears have not always been as heartwrung as I primly believe they ought to have been. ;-)

I have generally thought that this is untrue on the whole - examination of the sensations which lead on to tears (grief, shock, overwhelming joy, etc.) tends to confirm that they are as real as it gets. Perhaps the fact that I seem no longer to be capable of experiencing a strong emotion without examining it is what produces the suspicion...

But early this year I came to a new thought: At times, perhaps tears are an indulgence ... but perhaps the function of tears for humans, and the source of their reputed healing power, is that through weeping we find a way of probing the depth of our grief (or whatever), and eventually finding that there is an end to it. At least, there always has been for me.

If so, is there a meditation of tears?

Of course, it may not be so simple ... perhaps my experience is not similar to others ... perhaps you need to have some tendency to examine emotions meditatively in order for it to work. And there is also, I believe, destructive weeping, which brings neither healing nor understanding; or so it seems, for some people in some situations. For some it seems not to end at all, until exhaustion or the nurse brings sleep.

Any thoughts which people could offer on this would be received with gratitude.

Beannachd leibh.


Current Mood: content
1:49 pm
First Post From New Member.
Hello Everyone.

Thanks Herringprincess for created this community.

I'm not a Buddhist but find some of the teachings inspiring. I like many quotes from the Dalai Lama. I do not follow any religion but was born into a 'Sikh' family. I do consider myself to be spiritual and believe in Higher Powers than Humans.

I have read all the posts here so far. I will continue to check in for more posts.

Herringprincess, you mentioned training to go to India. My parents were born in India but I was born in Canada. I would enjoy hearing more about your training if you wish to tell more. Thank you.

T from Canada
Friday, July 1st, 2005
2:19 pm
On Happiness
"This section is dedicated to my nihilist friends who thought I have
been exaggerating by equating a healthy brain with happiness. In truth,
having a healthy brain and no symptoms of a physical depression does
not mean your life will be a carnival of constant bliss. There are
people who are unhappy their entire lives and yet never develop a
depression. They have a general discontent with life, a permanent
feeling that the present is not satisfactory enough, and frequent bouts
of the blues. However, given that their brains are healthy, they are
capable of feeling happiness when circumstances are favourable. In
comparison, a clinically depressed person will not feel happy even if
all their problems were magically resolved. If you have not done so
before, you will now understand how critical it is to make a
distinction between the psychological feeling which could be described
as "depressed", and the physical illness which affects the
brain—clinical depression. Many a prejudice would be overcome if
healthy individuals could be made to experience, even if just for just
five minutes, what the fire and the desperation of depression feel like."
- [from Demystifying Depression wikibook]

I'm posting this for the self-labeled depressives out there. The dissatisfaction I have always felt is not necessarilly because I am depressed. The subtle difference is being able to be Happy when circumstances are right. A clinical depressive cannot do this. Dissatisfaction is part of the Buddhist path. Being dissatisfied with the inconstancy of sensual stimulation is okay. Not wanting to constantly barrage yourself with things the rest of the world calls 'fun' and 'recreational' is okay. Not being the slightest bit envious when your friends are piss drunk, hanging out with Barbies and Kens, dancing and being rowdy, is okay. Not wanting to watch TV, is definitely okay. But wanting to be truly happy, independent of any external thing, is what sets us apart from the illness.

x-posted on my LJ
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